So this may totally be bad habits, but I really don't think it is.
I have decided that although I love the industry I am in, I hate the hours I keep. It's something I have always known, yet something I felt I never had a choice to acknowledge.
Recently I made a choice; a track that stays within my realm and decided that was my destination.
Lately though I am feeling it does not have to be the only one.
A while back my brain would have been too fearful to admit that thought existed, for I am a creature of habit. I like to cozy up, and stay where I know everyone. Much like the guys at the bar of "Cheers."
The flip side to me loving my current habitat is, I have a wildly creative dreamers side.
That every so often shows me images of me being a store owner in a cute little town somewhere and completely owning my whole life; and most importantly my schedule.
The logical side of me has always stood tall on my shoulder telling me I cannot get there because i do not know how.
I want to flick logic off my shoulder and look out into the world and maybe create the possibility that I can own my own business.
Live more of my life on my terms.
Live somewhere less busy, less rude, more country, more slightly hippiesque.
Deep down, I know that is what I want. I know that it's more me.
Starting in January, I will be taking my "Authenticity course" which I accidentally got signed up for, but now I am thinking it's probably the perfect course for me to take.
And I am marching my ass into some college counselor's office around here somewhere to see what options are the right one for me.
Wish me luck ;) I cannot help but laugh as I say that because I could hear Maurish saying in my head that there is no luck....
Own it, babycakes. It's your time. <3
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