I have spent a good deal of time in my new career journey beating myself up.
I have all these stories in my head that I have been beating down like flies
"you are not good enough"
"you are not smart enough"
"you don't know what you are doing"
" you have to make x amount of money in order to live"
"you are not going to make it"
Lately it has been a struggle to keep the ugly ness at bay.
I had to reconnect myself to my landmark teachings in order to reground myself again and sit with simba on the cliff over looking the playa.
Isn't it funny that no matter how much time has passed or how old you get these things never stop existing...
I am grateful however for mostly putting to rest the whole what is my life I am old and do not have my shit together conversation.
I feel like my inner child has taken over that dialogue, bursting in uninvited and un-announced screaming to have fun, be creative, color!!!!
I think this must be the same inner child that manifested the adult coloring book. I need to get one of those by the way..
Sigh, i don't have any idea where I am going, but I know where I have been; and I know I want to color and play.
That about sums it up folks.
